It's Three Weeks, I'm Going Insane

"I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink.
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink."
                       -- The Beatles

I Stand, Breathing

I enjoy dorm life, and am grateful that God has placed me at the Bible Institute, but I yearn for the days when I will live in a pint-sized writing cottage out in the woods somewhere. This morning the fog crept across the land and made morning something hazy.

"And indeed there will be time for the yellow smoke that slides along the street, rubbing its back upon the window panes." - T. S. Eliot 

I have these random flashbacks sometimes where I remember the woods, and what it felt like to stand in a forest, still. Outside of the arms of trees, I have the tendency to get 1) distracted and 2) hurried by life, so that I forget to just

stop

and breathe. I ventured into the previously uncharted territory of Doing Yoga today and felt really peaceful just inhaling. I'm constantly going, moving, rushing around. This verse came to mind:

"But Martha was distracted with all her preparations; and she came up to Him and said, 'Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me.' But the Lord answered and said to her, 'Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.'" ~ Luke 10:40-42

My only job is to sit at Jesus' feet.
And breathe.

i will dance in fields.

For the past few days I have been experiencing what one would call a Mental Haze. I went through something similar while volunteering at Christian camp this summer, a spiritual opposition stronger than I had known. When you set out to do things for the Kingdom, there will be retaliation from the devil. I remember one week I had such hardcore doubts that I wondered if God was even real. (Spoiler alert: He is.)

Now that I'm at Bible college, the opposition hasn't been quite as bad, but recently I have been finding it hard to connect. The joy from my relationship with Christ had been zapped. I was sitting in class today, trying to concentrate, but instead I found myself tangled up in feelings of inexplicable burden.

Then, BAM.
This verse.

"He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food." ~ Job 36:16 

I prayed, and someone else must have prayed for me, too, for then I felt like I had been given something to stand on again. The truth! It sounds so cheesy, but when God does things in my life like that, I gotta share 'em. Might even make that the umpteenth feature on this bloggeth: God Moments.

Other Such Glorious Pursuits of Today included receiving a Divine Parcel in the postage, learning the rule of thirds, inhaling a splendid pumpkin chocolate chip cookie (they exist), Unofficial Music Sharing Day, and writing this highly indulgent sentence.

Welcome to October.