Tuesday, October 14, 2014

A Loving Slap in the Face

I'm going to be honest with you: For a long time now I have been pushing God away on the subject of relationships. Having a relationship has become my little god, my idol, one that I constantly think about and worry over and just generally let bother me. It has become a bit of a thorn in the flesh, or at least I have allowed it to be. My sister and I had a good prayer and conversation about this issue this afternoon, and then the sweet dean of women at my college posted this delightful quote:

"When I have learned to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. In so far as I learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God and instead of God, I shall be moving towards the state in which I shall not love my earthly dearest at all. When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed but increased." ~ C.S. Lewis 

It was a kind of delightful, Clive-Staples-y answer to prayer. I have been looking for fulfillment in a relationship instead of finding it in my Lord. How can I love anyone when I depend so much upon them? How could I uplift a man of Christ adequately if I am not focused on Christ? So it was a wake up call. A slap in the face. Much needed, and welcomed. 

>> Also, I realize that the above photo has little to no bearing on the body of this post, but it is one of the only photos I have on my computer right now of the trip my family and I took to St. Augustine two years ago (hence the 19), and I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT ST. AUGGY. #takemeback #iwannago #nowwouldbegreat #ican't #toobusystudyintheWord #soonthough

Hey, you. Fall is coming, Fall is here. And the trees know the secrets of the autumn song. Do not despair


  1. Mmm...how very true. When we focus on God and seek first Him and His kingdom, everything else falls into place- but when we focus on the other things first, no matter how much effort we put into them, it all seems to be in vain! Like Psalm 127:1-2! =)
    Also, your honesty in titles is refreshing- how many people would be able to *recognize* a loving slap? Quite few I dare say. ;) But oh how we need them...

    Good post. =)


  2. YES!! I totally get this, because relationships had become my little god as well. I have been so consumed for so long with it and I have finally given it over to the Most High. Your post is soo encouraging and I love seeing when others surrender themselves to God in all areas of life. Also: I live 20 minutes from St. Auggy and I miss it terribly!
    I love this post, your blog, and your beautiful heart!


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